Yerli malı günü and going to Sağlık ocağı

Tuesday, 13 December 2011.

The first subject is related with my first son. Today is yerli malı günü (homemade product day) at his school. Every student was asked to bring foods, i.e cake, cookies etc made at home. My son was asked to bring a cake. That’s good since making cookies are more complicated for me than preparing cake. I am not an expert in kitchen job as well. My level is ‘dummy learner’ J however I always feel motivated to do the best for my sons activities.

Checking from one of popular woman magazine’s recipes, I found the perfect basic cake’s recipe. After first cake trial (which was yummy. Hooray, I am not too dummy anymoreJ ) I found I should make the cake with following ingredients:

 

4 eggs

150 gr sugar

190-200 gr wheat flour

1 spoon fresh milk

150 gr melted margarine or butter (my idea, using butter is more delicious)

 

Mix eggs and sugar until whitish look (about 10minutes using mixer)

Add wheat flour little by little while mixing it using spatula

Add milk and melted margarine or butter while keep on mixing

Put the batter into baking pan which has been covered with oil/butter.

Prepare oven at 180degree Celsius

Put the batter into oven for about 40 minutes. For the first 10 minutes, please use up and down heat while the cake is in the middle position. After the upper part of cake slightly brownish, change the heat position to be down part only.

Ta-da… the great taste cake is ready 

 

I am happy because I am successful at the first and second cakes.

Then, I accompanied my first son to his kindergarten to have homemade food party.

 Going to Sağlık ocağı (polyclinic) is a bit tricky. We had moved to the new flat actually but we have not registered our being to the nearest Sağlık ocağı. So my second son and I went to the one near with our old flat. He got his height (98cms) and his weight (14 kgs) measured. Since he also had coughing, I asked the doctor to give him prescription as well. 

 All were done well and my boys are really cooperative.

Thanks God for today.

 

discipline vs threat

It is about children behavior and how to discipline them. They are my sons. I care them a lot, may be more than their father. I really tried not to threaten them if they did not do what they should do. For example, to sleep on time or collect toys or finish their meals. But most of the time They did not do as I advised or warned so. They even challenged me by doing the things I said no and not to do the things that I asked them to do. I feel they are too pampered. what went wrong? am I too weak mother who do not have a heart to punish them or threaten them? Sometimes I burst in anger upon them and they became obedient boys. But only for temporary. After everything goes on normal (and I felt guilty of screaming on them), they would behave same again, that can raise my anger finally…

It’s so different with when their father warned them. with threatening method he could make the boys be more discipline, to collect the toys, especially. It is amazing. I wondered if i must start threatening method for them to listen what I say? May be I read too many child psychology books which are always at children’s side. Sometimes the books made parents like me feel guilty if we did small mistake to the children, like bursting in anger.

I did not to blame the authors of children’s psychology books. I am thinking about how different the life of children now and in old time. I felt i was more obedient to my parents. my parents even were much more obedient to their parents. Now children are more critical in everything. That is the good side. But they are also difficult to be disciplined

What I mean to say, I may follow the most efficient method to discipline boys, though may be it will be opposite with what were written in children’s psychology books. I hope I have a heart to do so, to simplify my daily life also.

 

 

recalling the impressing places

Bali Aug 1992, far before Bali bombings happened. It’s beautiful hot island as most people in this world knew it. I went to Kuta enjoying sunset while doubting my future would be after I decided not to enroll to be a student in Udayana University… How it would be if I chose that way, I still wondered.  silly me.

Paris Feb 2003, several years before the riot created bad image of beautiful Paris. However, Paris is and will always be beautiful. I stayed in La Defense and walked around Arc de Triompe, Eiffel tower and around. I love the wide sidewalks of the city and how the drivers put respect to the pedestrians. I wish I can return there again…one day.

Istanbul (for the first time) July 2005.  Blend between old and new building, Istanbul is unique city.  May be it is my destiny to have a life here. It is different to be a tourist or a resident. Now I found the city is like a normal cosmopolitan city, in my daily routine life here.

one spot around Taksim – Istanbul.

Phuket, Thailand Feb 2010. Simply wonderful and tourist friendly. Thai people are very helpful.

Cappadocia, June 2011. I love the region which is very reach of historical Christian heritage and unique landscape.

Buyuk Ada (Prince Islands), November 2011. it is unique to be in thne place where the roads are solely being used  for bicycles and horses  :)

It is wonderful to be a ‘tourist’… enjoying the places for temporary. It showed its beauty. When our life is started to be rooted in one place, do routine jobs… ah, what a boring moment. Sighed…

 

 

 

fruits and vegetables

Nama buah-buahan dan sayur-mayur	Fruit and vegetable names	Meyveler and sebzeler’in ismi
Apel	Apple	Elma
Pir	Pear	Armut
Nenas	Pineapple	Ananas
Ceri	Cherry	Kiraz
Prem/plum	Plum	Erik
Jeruk	Orange	Portakal
Semangka	Watermelon	Karpuz
Melon	Melon	Kavun
Wortel	Carrot	Havuç
Kentang	Potatoes	Patates
Kembang kol	Cauliflower	Karnıbahar
Bayam	Spinach	Işpanak
Tomat	Tomatoes	Domates
Terung	Aubergin/ Eggplant	Patlıcan
Bawang putih	Garlic	Sarımsak
Bawang bombay	Onion / Onion Chutney	Soğan

Anger

I know that anger will only create another problem, deplete energy and at the end I will regret it. It happened again. I got angry to my wonderful boys. Yes they are naughty. They often did not listen to me. They sometimes did the opposite things against what I had warned them. All created bubble of anger in me which finally burst in to anger.

I still and always felt guilty after the event(s)… but that anger came again and again. May be I should go working outside, hire a nanny to deal with the boys everyday, so I can be seen as ‘sweet’ mother who never gets angry. But, I can not do it. Besides how expensive the (educated) nanny will cost here, I also can not fully give my boys to the care of stranger. It is cliche but I really feel responsible fully to my boys growth based on daily activities together. I ever tried to work again while my big sister took care of them during week days and she went work on weekends, but my guilty feeling grew bigger. That’s why I decided to quit the job (which I regretted and wished I could be two persons in two places – work place and home – since the job was prestigious and I felt soooooo lucky to get that job after five years off from work-life to take care my babies).

Anyway, it was just yesterday I burst in anger and I had asked apology to my boys for that and I really hope that I can be muuuuuuch more patient upon them since they are still little boys, five and three. I should thank God that they are growing up wonderfully. May be I must count more than one to ten… may be one to one hundred

I feel better to find this media to ‘talk’ what I am feeling. I hope this can be a good therapy for my efforts to become a patient mother.

 

 

 

Name of days, months in Indonesian & Turkish

Nama bulan dalam setahun	Months of the year	Yılda bir
Januari	January	Ocak
Februari	February	Şubat
Maret	March	Mart
April	April	Nisan
Mei	May	Mayıs
Juni	June	Haziran
Juli	July	Temmuz
Agustus	August	Ağustos
September	September	Eylül
Oktober	October	Ekim
November	November	Kasım
Desember	December	Aralık

Nama hari dalam seminggu	Days of a Week	Haftanın günü
Senin       (Sen)	Monday         (Mon)	Pazartesi      (Pzt)
Selasa      (Sel)	Tuesday         (Tue)	Salı               (Sa)
Rabu        (Rab)	Wednesday   (Wed)	Çarşamba   (Çar)
Kamis       (Kam)	Thursday        (Thu)	Persembe     (Per)
Jumat       (Jum)	Friday              (Fri)	Cuma             (Cum)
Sabtu        (Sab)	Saturday         (Sat)	Cumartesi     (Cmt)
Minggu     (Min)	Sunday            (Sun)	Pazar              (Paz)

memory

Yeah, I’m still young enough and not yet successful to recall a memory. Anyway, I’ve just wanted to run away from uncomfortable current life…for sometimes.

I used to have beautiful fantasies when I was a kid. whenever the life seemed to press me, I directly could display whatever scenes I wanted. Was it about playing in a snowy winter, staying in chill mountain home,  even, flying like a bird…

Sometimes, I displayed warm home with warm family, but then I ended up feeling sad in reality. My favorite was when I displayed a person who must struggle hard for life. Though that person really had a tough life, finally she or he would reach what she/he wanted.  I felt better and more motivated when I had to return to my real life.

Life is a journey, they said. I have roamed to the direction I never expected. To the place which trapped me to keep in the real life. Which does not allowed me to run away, nor to turn to the fantasy.

I could hold the snow. It chilled my hand, but not to thrill my heart anymore… I could feel the breeze of wind blowing my face,  it is sweet, but not to turn on my spirit… Life is so-so, not up nor down.

I wanted to regret but I couldn’t. Life is too precious to be regretted. I wanted to have  beautiful fantasies as I ever had, at least to lift up my burden, but those had vanished from my mind…

The only thing I could do is to keep aware day by day… to warn myself to keep sane… and wish one day the fantasies can embrace me once again, to boost my energy life. I realize, I need my childhood fantasies…

Come, dwell in me once again…